Thursday, August 8, 2013
Who would want to harm this sweet baby?
Well, She would. ---->
I've stepped away briefly to grab clothing or my phone, and she's pushed the limits--especially mine. Its hard to rein in a mama-bear reaction hearing an infant scream, even if it's focused on another of my own children.
One morning i caught her BANGING her sister's baby doll on the kitchen table. She is apparently jealous and expresses herself, "I'm feeling sad/mad about the baby" or "i don't WANT the baby on your lap/nursing!".
We need to edit in some extra anger outlets it seems (into my subroutines as well?). She colored an Angry Picture yesterday after the most recent incident. Doesn't help me feel any more confident abut leaving her with him even if he's in the crib, even if its for an instant. "Ah, mi. Patience!" Cries the mother.
This is just one day, one of many that have passed and that will come. This particular day we're lucky to survive. On another day all will be most evidently well with all facets, giggles will abound and happiness doesn't disguise itself with challenges.
Feeling pretty weary at the moment. Breathe, pray, repeat.