THIS is WHERE I BEGAN over a month ago.  And now I get to write about a few things I've learned.

• It doesn't matter when I meditate, so long as I do.
• It doesn't matter how I pray, so long as I do.
• It doesn't matter when or how I get my exercise in, even if it's only 15 minutes, it's worth it.
• I will always feel better when these three, or at very minimum the first two, are included in my day.
• When I eat well, it only adds to the wonderful inward climate I've created, and helps to sustain it.
• Love begets love, in all forms, and on all levels.

I've noticed I'm more aware of those small moments with my girls, with others, those opportunities to be loving...especially to myself.  Taking up those opportunities---even if it's that 10 minutes I get to be Still while people are singing overhead---it's always worth the time.  When I wake in the morning lately I immediately begin thinking about when and how I'll get in my exercise, or when I'll hit the cushion.  I'm thinking on how I'll care for my self instead of the littany of things that need to be done, I attribute this to reinforcing my faith that all really is well, and everything will get done in God-time.
No hurry, no worry.
Happy days!

Day 43
meditation 10
prayer
walking all around grocery shopping, and praying, keeping my parenting skills foremost during the whole adventure
gratefully, happily paying bills

Day 42
impromptu "instant" meditation in beautiful warm sunshine listening to children playing---so a few minutes here and there  : )
cardio 40 walking to/from playground with jogger loaded with child & lunch goodies (could add in there packing items & moving things around, too,i noticed that activity took it's toll as I was walking back home)
resting stubbornly on the couch for 45 minutes,
reading Tolstoy
gratefully receiving moving boxes as a gift after reaching out

Day 41
Meditation 10
Prayer
Cardio 50 walking + little yoga
Outside with littles for lunch & bike rides
Better today, still rested finished off cold,efficiently handling
dinner & housework grateful
Happily successful homeschooling days this week, so fun to watch
progress after resting the knowledge, it's like magic!

Day 40
Meditation 10 outside!
Prayer
Fighting cold, eating well
Rest
Grateful day

Day 39
Has it been that long already? time does fly does it not? 4 days left.
morning journaling, i disovered it's easier sometimes as I'm in bed laying there hoping that I'm not disturbed for just a few more minutes
cardio 50 spin bike
eating like a horse, *pregnant sigh* rather tired of this version of my body, today when I think on how long I've left for this one I'm considerably put off of the idea....maybe I got the date wrong, or maybe they do, dare to dream.
reading Tolstoy while biking
happy to have our Blessing Bags at the ready in the vehicle should the inspiration strike at the right moment
feeling as if I'm fighting off something head-cold-ish
meeting
great huge gratitudes!

Day 38 (Sunday, today)
Meditation 20
prayer, and communing in online with Mile Hi broadcast
walking 60 outside gorgeous!
chatty with dear friend
The Firstborn made breakfast, and that was fun, then she tantrummed enough to be confined to her room indefinitely for the day
reading Exodus, yes as in The Bible, the Llamsa version compared to the NRSV Green Bible, searching for references of the Jews as slaves, which neither had; both referred to the severe "oppression" but never used the word "slave", we were watching the History Channel's The Bible
also read some Tolstoy before bed

Day 37 (Saturday)
omigawd the cursed screaming & crying lamentations today!
sitting meditation 10 with a warm little body leaning on me, giving random kisses, and while not being still keeping very quiet
hangin' with neat like-minded people for parties and other gatherings, then ice cream treat afterward

Day 36 (Fri)
children slept in (??), walking all about the Science museum
followed by much prayer in the car on the way home (see Mayhem, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=khDdRExFF-k)
reading Tolstoy
reclining meditation (focused breathing for a time),
rest, and flat refusal to be vertical for a bit more time
chatting with meeting buddies about newest development with The House
eating well enough considering it's shopping day, but by dinner time, as we're all out at the grocery, it ended with cracker crust pizza
journaling

Day 35 (Thurs)
spin bike 20, walking 20
reclining meditation, well 'cause I just didn't want to be vertical any more, which turned to resting
reading ITwtI (Trine), Karenina (Tolstoy)
eating king, prince, pauper---well by dinner I'm incredibly hungry again, I'm chalking it up to my increased cardio activities, The Baby is HUNGREE
prayer and a lot of it
journaling
loving and grateful for a wonderful Man who will just hold me and let me cry it out that I feel protected from those Little People with whom I feel like a target some days

Day 34
Meditation 10, in the bright beautiful snowy afternoon
Yoga 20
Reading Tolstoy
Outside listening to giggling girls
Chatting with dear friends
Happy homeschooling & housework, little packing prep

Day 33
Meditation 16, gave in to rest as I was struggling, realized that
forcing anything doesn't help
Hanging with The Firstborn pleasantly
Enjoying beautiful snow, baking, & even housework
So grateful for the good that I,we, are showered with every day, every way.
Reading ITwTI
Catch up journaling a bit

Day 32
Cardio 55 spin bike & walking treadmill
Meditation 30 (so excited to hit the cushion, wonderful respite)
Prayer
Reading In Tune With the Infinite (Trine)
Few minutes rest, reading Tolstoy, while chicken thawing
Chatting with two favorite friends
Grateful & productive overall
Giggling & playing with The Younger of the Two, enjoying (mostly) The
Elder of the Two's description of her little boy crush and her day at
homeschool connection.

Day 31(Sun,today)
Yoga 20
Reading, some Dispenza & Tolstoy
Meditation & prayer with just a few hundred friends because of weather
Eating all right, probably didn't need that chocolate muffin : )

Day 30 (Sat)
Cardio walking + yoga lite 60 minutes (at the gym no less!)
New blender, so eating is easier for greens,yay gratitude!

Day 29 (Fri)
Plenty of prayer with my parenting, not a moment to spare for myself otherwise
Eating well enough considering it's shopping day
Feeling especially loving & grateful

Day 28
Stairs 30 modified pushups & vini yoga 10
Self care ~> Wonderful visit at the dentist, grateful we've a
community to work within, so grateful we can go to the dentist at all!
Meditation 10
Hanging with my husband
RAK Gifted oranges to homeless man, grateful we can share

Day 27
Home day, fairly lazy all around
Gratitude of parenting skills learned, successful love & logicking the firstborn
Grateful for beautiful snow!

Day 26 (Today, Tuesday)
up early, eating very well, though not early enough to get my rhythm in before kiddos awake
20 Stair dancing
10 yoga
10 meditation
gratitude,giggles,happy work for LOViNTee

Day 25 (Mon)
purposeful and productive with housework, amidst morning lesson, and prepping for launch to afternoon activities
doc appt for me and ultrasound for baby (all is well, no we don't look for gender)
laughin' in a maternity suit, tolerating overcrowded indoor pool for the sake of my children, random act kindness? possibly.
eating very well except for that blasted sugar drink for the diabetes test---blechk
dropped a note of thanks on our new friend/landlady's door
to sleep early

Day 24 (Sun)
short meditation with 1000 good friends
hangin' out laughing at the church
thoroughly enjoyed a bit of Downton Abbey catch-up
eating well, water good

Day 23
paused the meditating, why is this?  I'll have to contemplate---that's bullsh*t, I already know.  Usually it's due to a feeling of coming too close to the divine, I get skittish and back away a little...nervous about the brightness and potential, especially when manifestations come firmly into reality, reminds me of this quote:

So, today:
Day 23
Meditation 10
Prayer
 Cardio 40 walking
Hangin' with Littles, books & blocks
Gratitudes & blessings, a couple of which were simply watching little girls' faces & listening to Papa with them...they have it really good, and i am soso grateful
Creative pursuits, writing here
Journal ing
 Practicing loving Detachment
Chatting with meeting momma

Day 22 (15 Feb Fri)
Too too fun hang out & catch up with library buddy, her boys are almost exact age difference as my girls.
Then wonder of wonders, synchonicity and got to have a late lunch with dear Friend M + crew hang out for burritos, cookies, and berries.
Gratitude!
stair climbin' for cardio 15 squeezed in before grocery trips

Day 21
climbing stairs in house 15 + modified pushups (20 total)
rest (been staying up too late, excitement of gratitude has been energizing)
hangin' with My Valentine and many other loving people for potluck lunch
creative baking with The Firstborn, laughing about almost disasters
chatting with dear friend
just simply, incredibly grateful for my health & well being, joy just bubbling up everywhere
blogging : )

Day 20
Gratefully consciously shopping for myself---really.  This past week I recognized that the regular long sleeves I've been stretching over The Belly were no longer working.  So, tripped to Mommy's Merry-Go-Round nearby, then Nordstrom Rack for easy underthings, and finally Target for a very specific seamless under-tank I've found to be indispensable the last two times.  The girls still had slight fevers, though feeling bunches better.  They trooped through it all, including the last stop to grocery for valentine cake items.
Even without meditation & cardio, still a wonderfully gratitude filled day of fun.

Day 19
Meditation 20 + prayer
Home day(again) so lots of packing done = exercise for pregnant lady?
It was yesterday.
I am so grateful for the synchronicity of God-the-universe....The
House is in effect!
Disinfecting this home happily
Eating & drinking exceptionally well staving off whatever it is girls contracted
I am healthy, I am well repetitively mantra-ed
Reading for pleasure, Tolstoy's Karenina

Day 18
Meditation 17 (difficult this afternoon, no particular reason)
Prayer
Reaching out with Love to an acquaintance on a more in depth spiritual level
Reading
Rest 20
Felt good to get some behind the scenes (basement) organizing & packing done
Active packing, decent enough short workout, shouldn't have been
lifting most likely though
Taking care of business

Day 17
Relaxing and feeling The Universe's synchronicity with connections made
Giggling with The Man and my girls
Meeting with friends
Eating well +++ green goodies
meditation 10
prayer
journaling
reading poetry & anna karenina

Playing a little catch-up with my CARE FULL 43 diary

Day 16(today) Sat.
big SereniTea party with friends
catch up on blog : )
walking 20 with Miss J

Day 15(2/8) Fri.
meditation 10
yoga 20
volunteering for curriculum sale
hanging and chatting with dear Miss J while grocery shopping, consciously feeling big gratitudes to the women I've been blessed to have in my life, hangin' out this week
shouting and giggling for joy that God-the-universe is AWEsome, and prayer works....we are open to receive exactly what we intended with The House, the situation perfectly suited to our particular financial status

Day 14(2/7) Thurs.
began with prayer
what a gorgeously wonderful day, such a huge difference from the day before, I feel SO much better, thank goodness for afternoon naps!
We hung with friends all day (see Day's Work post) laughing and chatting and eating yummy healthy foods. Gratefully M'n'crew stay around while The Man and I perused the interior of a house we'd already checked out neighborhood.  He gifts me an (actual) book of poetry. Later, girls were wasted tired, bedded down early, I got to hang with Miss M in her Send Out Cards Valentine Brownie Party.
journaling
Oh Happy Healthy Days

Day 13(2/6) Wed.
Totally shot through with ichky-ness. Barely conscious it seems (though I've felt worse).
long rest in the afternoon, then trucked Miss Monkey to her gymnastics class and gratefully headed to a meeting, felt better afterward per usual.
Arriving home I opened a SOC box and found inside the sweetest card with brownies from my Indonesian Pen Pal---wow!  too too sweet and fun, and what a supernice surprise.

Not a "Most" Day

Most days I wake with a certain cheerfulness.  Though I haven't succeeded with my ideal schedule yet, it's just as well, I've been able to fit the Care Full things in as needed.  Most days I can wake and begin the day with ease and grace (more so after breakfast).  Most days our rhythm is fairly set, small people are cooperative 'cause our curriculum is pretty fun, simple, the morning lesson moves quickly.

This morning however, I woke with a serious dread to this day.  No particular reason.  I want to sleep for another couple of hours to shake this head-cold experience, I'm not optimistic about the 3yo attitude for the day...it's been brutal the last couple of days.  Monka-Doo has really been testing her boundaries, reminding me of Miss Monkey as she hit Thunderous Threes and I was suddenly in a world of Whiskey-Tango-Foxtrot did I do to deserve this hellion of a child?  Monday I think there was maybe only one, ONE, hour of the entire day when (while awake or present) someone wasn't whining, screaming, fig1hting, or crying.
(see also tantrums label)

The Firstborn has been relatively resistant lately with our curriculum, and I get frustrated with any thought-quip that "well it's supposed to simply flow, if you'd do your prep work earlier or more thoroughly."  My reactive response for the moment, "F-off."  The girls miss each other when one is in homeschool connection, then t'other attends her little school following day. So, this morning they are content to play quietly together going on 2 hours now.  And I'm letting them---so, so, very grateful for the reprieve.  Miss Monkey will have to catch up on her work, as it seems she's uninterested in participating at the movement-song-form-draw level, I feel my recourse is to have her sit and do the work much like institutional school, worksheets and whatnot.  Tomorrow is another day.

I just wish I felt better to get some housework and packing complete.  le sigh.  Getting back on track totally with dieta, and continuing the search for the next house.
:- /

 I am in need of a proper camera, partly for LOViNTee purposes. The last one damaged by small people and has gone walkabout, noticing a total lack of photos, save instagram & phone pics....feelin' kinda sad about this.

Day 9 & 10
The Man & I were barely functional Day 9, eating last night's desperate-attempt-to-eat-anything-the-only-thing-I-would-dare-stomach cheese pizza for breakfast, then not wanting to eat at all, vaguely coherent for grocery shopping, then had a wicked crave for milkshake and french fries much later, which we ate out as a family...too too fun, and too too silly.
Day 10 was, of course the Harbowl after lovely prayer & meditation with our Mile Hi community....though I bravely ate greens with lunch, then again with my half-bun cheese burger, things still weren't right overall, the Ravens'-purple cupcake didn't really help, but it was fun!
I did get to read some Thoreau and journal before bed. All is well.